Chloe Morgane - Acceptance

I am not Broken

I’ve had to deal with perfectionism a good deal of my life. I felt like if I wasn’t perfect, then I wasn’t whole, and I had to fix myself in some way. As long as I thought I had to be fixed, I send myself the message that I was actually broken. 

If only I could’ve been just a little bit more of this, and a lot less of that, then I would probably be fixed and perfect. I think I was addicted to trying to fix myself. Maybe that’s why I read all those books about personal development, or why I tried all those weird diets – vegetarian, vegan, raw vegan – trying to heal my body from all the discomforts the feelings of being broken gave me.

I believed that if I could heal and fix myself, I would be perfect and complete. I was missing the truth that I am good enough, as I am, right now. A hard revelation. Acceptance is one of the hardest things to do for me. Not only do I have to accept, but I have to accept that I am enough, that there’s no need to be perfect, simply because perfection doesn’t exist.

Letting go of the idea that I must fix myself in some way to meet some standards made up by our society and my imagination is liberating. I can understand myself when I accept everything about me. I can get curious about the reasons behind my actions, and I can change for the right reasons, not to be some ideal of what I think people want me to be.

I am not broken. I am enough. I am whole.

You are not broken. You are enough. You are whole.

 

3 thoughts on “I am not Broken”

  1. You certainly are not “broken”! You are beautiful inside and out! Nobody is “perfect”! You are talented, active and pursuing your interests. Your happiness shows in your eyes, in your videos and pictures!

  2. Dear Chloe,
    I have left many comments on your blog. If you browse back to many of them you will find that there was always one theme. That is to accept ourselves as we are. There is no need to even have a standard called perfect because such a beast called perfection does not exist except in our head.

    If one wants to be secure, and truly secure, they have reach a state of understanding to stop seeking security in life. If one wants to be rich, they have to reach an understanding to stop seeking things.

    For our sense of security we need validation from others that drives up our need to achieve an idea of perfection constantly seeking to improve ourselves. The issue is not about seeking new ideas or wanting to accomplish new things. It has to do with the internal reason we seek those things. If the seeking is for achieving validation from others it is endless.

    A better approach is not to seek perfection but rather find happiness in our unique way to offer services that help others.

    Your contribution is to have turned porn into an art form with providing fantasies to many who are in no position to achieve them in their real life. It is a form of service in my thinking.

    You are endowed with a great body and looks. You have the habits and skills to care for it well. In today’s standards of beauty you are #1 in the minds of many of your fans. For many you represents a degree of perfection. One day after 25 years the standards of beauty may have evolved but what matters only is that you continue to accept and love the way you are then.

    You have a great mind – creative and inquisitive.

    I think you have a great heart.

    Glad you have realized you were never broken in the first place and are whole all the time

    All the best,

  3. Dear Chloe,
    I wish to echo the previous comments

    How many people do you know who are perfect? And we all have our frailties or vulnerabilities.

    You are a strong, caring and understanding woman who cares for others as well as herself.

    I believe you are as near perfect as one can be and have a wonderful spirit of peace and love.

    I apologise for the delay in my reply but have been recovering from an operation.I have had my prostate removed following a cancer diagnosis. I am very lucky in that the cancer hasn’t spread and am now getting my strength back and well on the road to recovery.

    I was inspired by your determined approach to overcoming your injuries following your bike accident.

    So many thanks and carry on being who you are.
    xx

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